So it's been around 48 hours without sleep now. Today's really the first time I fell asleep standing up during worship, i literally toppled for awhile before waking up. I think I must have looked really retarded.
Last night was really fun actually to my surprise. Had an agreement with Elvie not to sleep that night and to meet up for breakfast at 5am. So we talked till about 4, and I picked her up and went to some weird McDonald's. Had a nice long interesting chat. Another surprise was being asked to sing for Children's Chapel. Foreign dude said I could sing, I think he must be tone deaf.
Well Dear Blog, I finally said what I wanted to say today. I kinda expected this result. To be honest, I always expect this ending to most of my relationships / friendships so it may or may not be why I'd rather keep a distance. I should feel better right, after saying stuff bottled down for a couple of weeks. But I don't, I feel like crap. I feel like I'm letting everyone down by running away from my problem and starting afresh. I'm still determined and set to see this through though. It all depends on Thursday I guess.
I just wish you could see things through my perspective. Only then will you understand.
Nothing goes as planned,
Everything will break.
People say goodbye.
In their own special way.
All that you rely on,
And all that you can fake
Will leave you in the morning,
Will find you in the day.
Oh, you're in my veins,
And I cannot get you out.
Oh, you're all I taste
At night inside of my mouth.
Oh, you run away,
Cause I am not what you found.
Oh, you're in my veins,
And I cannot get you out.
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