Paint my Love

Wah wah wee wah. This is my 50th post, I guess that's an achievement in itself for me. Looking at all those old posts reminds me of everything I've gained and lost I guess.

The last couple of years have been an emotional roller coaster. The irony of it all, is that some days I wake up and feel like nothing's changed at all these years and I'm right back at Square One.

Then reality starts to set in as the day goes by. Kinda like Capello's :D :) :| :( Facial expressions.

School's starting tomorrow, and I guess I can't really slack anymore. Thing's are gonna get busy. It's kinda timely I too I guess because being preoccupied really beats having nothing to do at times, that's when I really start thinking too much and shit.

On the topic of school, I guess I don't know much about my future studies too. My parents are pretty on about sending me abroad to Hawaii to study god knows what over there. Mostly because of relatives living there that can probably keep an eye out for me, and not to mention lodging la, but oh well.

I should have a say shouldn't I? The messed up thing is that I probably do have a say, but I don't have much of a reason to stay. Someone give me a reason to stay? Please?

On the other hand, being overseas for 3+ years, may be a good thing as well eh? How timely. Hah. I guess it was kinda intimidating for awhile when my family was talking about it, I got the vibe that they do want me away too. Plus my mum added in the, "then you should probably work overseas for a few years before coming back"

I guess I don't really have anyone but myself to blame. I mean, I could totally play the should have, would have, could have card again, but this time, ugh. Perhaps if I stuck to the plan and went ahead with AC, and worked hard, I guess I wouldn't need to go through this right now? Maybe 3 times a week of awkwardness would have been a fair price to pay. I would have also definitely met you a lot earlier too, and who knows how that might have worked out. Ugh, too much variables, too little sleep. Sorry.

Yep, right back at square one.

Paint my love
You should paint my love
It’s the picture of a thousand sunsets
It’s the freedom of a thousand doves
Baby you should paint my love

Doesn't even begin to describe that picture I tried explaining.
Here's to another 50 posts.