&You Don't Know How Lovely You Are.

2010-08-16T04:17:00.001-07:00

www.withinaheartbeat.tumblr.com

Promises are promises.

2010-07-29T06:46:00.000-07:00

For all those things I wish that I could say. This will have to do.

Good news for people who love bad news

2010-07-20T05:43:00.000-07:00

I'm kinda really blogging for the sake of blogging cause I don't really have anything better to do! Teehee.

Well, life has been pretty much normal, with it's usual ups and downs. I don't know if it's a good or bad thing, but I'm pretty numb to a lot of things right now. Okay I take that back, it's actually a good thing! I guess it's because it sucks to be so emotional all the time, even over the slightest thing.

So yep! I'm in that carefree mood today where nothing pretty much matters! The biggest concern on my mind right now is taking the drinks out of the freezer in case I forget and it freezes up. (Which I hate) Actually its kinda my fault as I can never have the patience to leave it in the normal fridge compartment. I don't know, it seems to take FOREVER to chill.

Probably the only other thing on my mind right now is me wanting to remember to send an SMS at 01:15, quarter AFTER one, not BEFORE, so if I forget, I'm terribly sorry. Haha!

Okay! I can actually start to feel the emotional-ness coming back to me haha, so I'll end this blog post fast!

Like right here!

If we cry because the sun has gone out in our lives, our tears prevent us from seeing the stars

Broken

2010-07-15T09:02:00.000-07:00

This is goodbye, this is the end.

To me, you're Perfect.

2010-07-14T11:24:00.000-07:00

Okay, projects are finally starting to pile up. Especially my integrated project which is basically one long ass presentation upon 400 marks, consisting of 4 module presentations presented as one huge-mutated-butt-ugly-rabbit.

As I chuckle slightly at my wit for making that word up above, I suddenly realize again why I'm blogging, and return to my kinda sorta moapy 3am state. What kind of loser takes a nap at 8 sets an alarm at 10, and wakes up at 3. It happens, you may think. But not like this, where you have the wrong intentions or expectations for it to follow. I feel really stupid right about now. But I really only have myself to blame.

Okay assumptions are bad.

I have a basic theory test later (wanted to type tomorrow and I looked at the time again, ugh), I feel rather confident as the questions seem rather self explanatory so far.. and well girls have passed it. O-kay.

The past few days have shown and kinda reinforced whatever I've been feeling. Although not too cheery-ish. I don't know what sucks more.

I know what I have to do.

And yes, people I realized my blog does look very emo with my posts, but that's because I only blog when I feel that way, and when I want to express whatever shit's on my mind. Which is actually a good thing in a sense, since I blog so little, doesn't that mean I'm only upset for like once or twice in a month?

Aiya whatever, this post is stupid.

I'm a hypocrite.

2010-07-05T09:01:00.000-07:00

Whatever la, i give up.
Reality is a bitch.

They don't speak as loud as my heart

2010-07-02T08:26:00.000-07:00

I walked a mile with Pleasure;
She chatted all the way;
But left me none the wiser
For all she had to say.

I walked a mile with Sorrow,
And ne’er a word said she;
But, oh! The things I learned from her,
When sorrow walked with me.

This has been a rather busy week for me, reports sales interviews, data gathering, surveys, and the likes. I got a couple of tests next week which is kinda annoying I guess.

I'm in that mood right now again because I'm listening to The Scientist, not by Coldplay, but by All Angels, I'm usually not a great big fan of anyone else playing covering Coldplay songs, besides me of course :p But still, this is really good stuff, I've never heard harmonization like that, damn near perfection I'd say.

I finally went with Keren to The Little Drom Shop that she wanted to visit so much, it's dream in Swedish if I'm not wrong. It's really vintage, and yet really cozy! I really want my home to be something like that next time. :) I managed to find really awesome postcards there! And I picked out one. I think it looks really awesome, but then again I'm too bias.

I also finally ate Wendy's with Pervie the other day, we're like burger hunters or something. Going around Singapore to find the best burgers! Yum. It's been like what, Everything With Fries, Hand Burger, Wendy's, next up is Burger Bench/Shack. :)

CHOP today was interesting, it was my first time attending it. I found out it was Alicia's first time too! Was kinda fun I guess, us praying for all those stuff on the list. I think that 30 minutes was probably more time I've spent praying than the entire week, which isn't all that great I guess.

Off to do lesson plan! or not.

And I realized I've been going out a lot recently, but the rain kinda kills it. Ruins my chance to wear my new Aviators. 8-D

Paint my Love

2010-06-28T08:40:00.000-07:00

Wah wah wee wah. This is my 50th post, I guess that's an achievement in itself for me. Looking at all those old posts reminds me of everything I've gained and lost I guess.

The last couple of years have been an emotional roller coaster. The irony of it all, is that some days I wake up and feel like nothing's changed at all these years and I'm right back at Square One.

Then reality starts to set in as the day goes by. Kinda like Capello's :D :) :| :( Facial expressions.

School's starting tomorrow, and I guess I can't really slack anymore. Thing's are gonna get busy. It's kinda timely I too I guess because being preoccupied really beats having nothing to do at times, that's when I really start thinking too much and shit.

On the topic of school, I guess I don't know much about my future studies too. My parents are pretty on about sending me abroad to Hawaii to study god knows what over there. Mostly because of relatives living there that can probably keep an eye out for me, and not to mention lodging la, but oh well.

I should have a say shouldn't I? The messed up thing is that I probably do have a say, but I don't have much of a reason to stay. Someone give me a reason to stay? Please?

On the other hand, being overseas for 3+ years, may be a good thing as well eh? How timely. Hah. I guess it was kinda intimidating for awhile when my family was talking about it, I got the vibe that they do want me away too. Plus my mum added in the, "then you should probably work overseas for a few years before coming back"

I guess I don't really have anyone but myself to blame. I mean, I could totally play the should have, would have, could have card again, but this time, ugh. Perhaps if I stuck to the plan and went ahead with AC, and worked hard, I guess I wouldn't need to go through this right now? Maybe 3 times a week of awkwardness would have been a fair price to pay. I would have also definitely met you a lot earlier too, and who knows how that might have worked out. Ugh, too much variables, too little sleep. Sorry.

Yep, right back at square one.

Paint my love
You should paint my love
It’s the picture of a thousand sunsets
It’s the freedom of a thousand doves
Baby you should paint my love

Doesn't even begin to describe that picture I tried explaining.
Here's to another 50 posts.

What can't but should be

2010-06-20T06:53:00.000-07:00

Making the right decision isn't always that clear-cut and straight forward you'd thought it'll be.

But that's the beauty of it isn't it, you'll never know my true feelings right there and then, you'll never know my true intentions and whatever I say or do will be my little masquerade, my little silent victory, my little sacrifice.

Was it worth it? You bet it is.

I'm sure it isn't easy dealing with people like me. Especially when you're not really obliged to.

So if it ever gets too much one day like the way you described it, just say those words and I'll fade away.

"Maybe I love you
Maybe I just like the sound
If you disappear
You’ll still hear when my heart hits the ground

We’ll never know what it’s like to be free
How do you sow what can’t but should be

There’s no explanation there’s only what we cannot change
So we’ll leave how we met, with nothing the same"

On a side note, Slap Bets are up. 20th December 2010, here I come.

"Now life has killed the dream I dream."

2010-05-30T03:44:00.000-07:00

So it's been around 48 hours without sleep now. Today's really the first time I fell asleep standing up during worship, i literally toppled for awhile before waking up. I think I must have looked really retarded.

Last night was really fun actually to my surprise. Had an agreement with Elvie not to sleep that night and to meet up for breakfast at 5am. So we talked till about 4, and I picked her up and went to some weird McDonald's. Had a nice long interesting chat. Another surprise was being asked to sing for Children's Chapel. Foreign dude said I could sing, I think he must be tone deaf.

Well Dear Blog, I finally said what I wanted to say today. I kinda expected this result. To be honest, I always expect this ending to most of my relationships / friendships so it may or may not be why I'd rather keep a distance. I should feel better right, after saying stuff bottled down for a couple of weeks. But I don't, I feel like crap. I feel like I'm letting everyone down by running away from my problem and starting afresh. I'm still determined and set to see this through though. It all depends on Thursday I guess.

I just wish you could see things through my perspective. Only then will you understand.

Nothing goes as planned,
Everything will break.
People say goodbye.
In their own special way.

All that you rely on,
And all that you can fake
Will leave you in the morning,
Will find you in the day.

Oh, you're in my veins,
And I cannot get you out.
Oh, you're all I taste
At night inside of my mouth.
Oh, you run away,
Cause I am not what you found.
Oh, you're in my veins,
And I cannot get you out.

Let's go back to the start..

2010-05-24T07:36:00.000-07:00

This is probably me just thinking too much again. I slept a good part of the afternoon so now I can't really sleep. Ugh. This sucks.

I want a frigging time machine so I could get rid of all the should haves , would haves and could haves there are in my life.

Dream a little dream of me.

2010-05-19T05:27:00.000-07:00

"A dream is something that fills up the emptiness inside, the one thing that you know if came true would make all the hurt would go away."

Maybe this time.

2010-05-16T05:21:00.000-07:00

I just wanna scream out everything that I'm feeling.

Empty.
Frustrated.
Anxious.
Worried.
Scared.
Tired.
Longing.
Insecure.
Emotional.

Yet at the same time

Thankful.
Grateful.
Indebted.
Relieved.
Hopeful.

I guess missing someone could turn from pain into pleasure if you knew the person was missing you too.

You're my unintended,

2010-05-07T05:54:00.000-07:00

One of the worst feelings I think someone can ever experience is finding out that everything that they stood for and believed in, is utter bullshit. I'm worried that I'll experience that day soon. But not yet. I knew what I signed up for.

You could be my unintended
Choice to live my life extended
You could be the one I'll always love
You could be the one who listens to my deepest inquisitions
You should be the one I'll always love

I'll be there as soon as I can
But I'm busy mending broken pieces of the life I had before.

Relapse.

2010-04-28T08:16:00.000-07:00

Life lives, life dies. Life laughs, life cries. Life gives up and life tries. But life looks different through everyone's eyes.

I wish you could see it through mine. It hurts when people don't believe you. It really does.

Just the way you are.

2010-03-30T09:26:00.001-07:00

Ah well. I'm posted to jurong point now. Sure it's nearer to my house, but it's alot more cramped, and i'm reduced to using Wireless@SG with a one bar connection, which really really sucks.

I guess you don't appreciate what you have till It's gone. It's always always the case.

So quite alot has happened since my last post, but I shalnt really list it. It's becoming quieter and quieter now adays with alot of early nights. Hah. Reminds me of a couple years back.

Oh well. So whatever it is, waiting hours on end, the way you express yourself, whatever really. I'll take you just the way you are.

Head vs Heart

2010-03-08T21:07:00.000-08:00

Can this be? Two blog posts in the very same month? Can hamsters one day rise up against humanity and enslave us all? Is there hope for mankind?

Well,the answer is yes. (To blogging)

So I realised my last post was kinda bleh,and I did write it in a bleh state. Things have kinda picked up I guess,sorta.

Today I was supposed to go back to doing Data Entry for my job,however as I arrived at the nail outlet in a late timely fashion I realised that the new staff that was supposed to be there as my boss had said wasn't there at all. So i had the oh shit feeling already, but as I placed my bag down and stoned at the bar counter for awhile eating the Rock Candy I bought yesterday (omg i love rock candy), I realised something was amiss. I didn't get nagged at for being late. My branch manager isnt in! And I guess another good aspect of my job is that I don't have a time card to clock in or out so technically on paper, i'm invisible.

Anyway, this post shows how productive/demanding my job actually is. I've barely been in for an hour and I already started blogging.

There's been alot of stuff going on within cell lately,and everyone has their fair share of problems.

Anyway, I guess the main point about this post is mainly Head vs Heart.

I'm sure most people have experienced this dillema or situation they're in when they have to choose either following their head, or heart. You feel so attracted to that person that you're willing to look past all their little flaws. But ironically as time goes by you realise that it's all the little flaws that actually makes you attracted to them for who they really are. If you can't accept them at their worst, why should you even expect them at their best?

That's where head comes in, albeit a little too late. You start reasoning and rationalizing with yourself how you're not compatible with that individual, how you're worlds apart and how different you guys actually are.

Most people say forget what the head says and just follow your heart. I would say I used to be a stern believer in this and kinda like a hopeless romantic in a sad sort of way.

Well,obviously it hasnt really been working out for me. So maybe it's time I give my head a chance.

I don't think my thoughts are properly constructed today. I'm abit tired and distracted by a super loud speak next to me blasting channel news asia.

Tales of a self proclaimed Bartender.

2010-03-07T03:36:00.000-08:00

So as many of you may or may not know, I'm working at a nail spa/bar for my internship. It's a pretty foreign field for me and I would say for most guys due to the nature of work. I was really pretty upset with the long working hours and pay that they offered (Mon to sat, 11-9, or even mon to sun for first two weeks) But i've really learnt to take things in my stride.

Actually it wasn't that easy, i'm not the type of person that likes to just accept whatever happens to me, I'll normally break everything down to the slightest details and find out what went wrong or how I ended up in such a situation. It has it's good and bad sides to it I guess, on a plus side, I get to really understand what's going on and what I'm doing wrong and perhaps what I can do to get a different outcome, and I dont know why but that really gives me a sense of peace and closure i guess? But on a negative side, when I can't figure ot the problem or there's too many variables or no clear answer, i'll be pretty much stuck on that problem and harp on it for the longest time you can possible imagine. (Think Sheldon when presented with a question he can't answer)

Yep, so as you may have guessed I did try analyzing everything why I got posted to such an internship. Stuff like grades, year 3 course choices, backgrounds, skillsets and whatever nonsense. I know it sounds pretty lame, but yeah that's what i think about and do in my free time, sue me. So yeah, i guess i just blamed it on my luck for 3 guys out of i dont know how many students to get possibly the worse internship ever.

So yeah, my month was pretty crappy with everything going on, plus idk some stuff with my personal life as usual. So with this = gg. So much free time to think about stuff at work. I swear msn and sms-es from you guys are really what gets me through the day. Hah. Anyway, I was really emotional during church today. I have no idea why, I guess was because my walk is really bad these few months, with me even idk doubting my faith at times? Which I guess really makes me a horrible teacher for the sec ones sigh. But yeah, i cried today during worship and just did alot of self reflection. I really gotta thank Zhan Feng for noticing and praying for me after service, it really meant alot to me. But not just zf, everyone for helping me out, edmund, hg, hk(kinda LOL),alden,jerome for your sms and prayers, petrina for all your constant encouragement,alicia, amanda,eunic,annette,sarah though you're not in singapore. oh man,basically everyone hah.

So yeah, during work today i was kinda late for work by 15 mins and my boss gave me the -.- look and said "ni chi dao le" and i was like oh shit. She may be from China, but she can tell i'm facebooking and msn-ing every day and wants to complain to my manager LOL. She's actually a really nice person, i learnt alot about her, about coming to singapore for a better life, struggling with english for a year, how she has to pay her agent 10k for coming here, and how she misses home. It's kinda sad and I'm really grateful that I don't have to endure such things.

Oh yeah, anyway (omg i side track super easily) so i was kinda sian today cause it kinda started with a bad note, but halfway I got a call from my boss, asking how was I, and that i could take Monday and wednesday off. I was like huh, why? LOL. he says i need the rest for thursday due to giving out flyers in the IT fair. Which sounds pretty shady to me. I have a feeling someone complained to the Ministry of Manpower or something citing the labour law LOL. Im not complaining or anything but yeah, i was really shocked when he told me I could take two days off.

So yep, even though I may not still be entirely happy with my job and where I am right now, as Amanda says, everything always happens for a reason. So yeah, here's a post dedicated towards hope for a better tomorrow that serves as motivation for today.

I think this has been my longest blog post in some time and I thank you for your time for reading it if you have.

I really hope my next post will be a even better one.

P.S for those that keep asking, yes i made drinks as a bartender, Cosmopolitan (Y)lol. No i will not give you free drinks if you come down.

It gets harder and harder each day.

2010-02-23T03:18:00.000-08:00

Thank you for always being there for me.

Thank you for your patience.

Thank you for your encouragement.

Thank you for being you.

The Scientist

2010-01-26T07:30:00.000-08:00

I don't think i'll ever find another song that I can relate to as much as this.

Come up to meet you, tell you I'm sorry
You don't know how lovely you are.
I had to find you, tell you I need you,
Tell you I set you apart.

Tell me your secrets and ask me your questions,
Oh lets go back to the start.
Running in circles, Comin' in tails
Heads on a science apart.

Nobody said it was easy,
It's such a shame for us to part.
Nobody said it was easy,
No one ever said it would be this hard.

Oh take me back to the start.

I was just guessin' at numbers and figures,
Pulling your puzzles apart.
Questions of science, science and progress
Do not speak as loud as my heart.

And tell me you love me, come back and haunt me
Oh and I rush to the start.
Runnin' in circles, Chasin' tails
Comin' back as we are

Christmas isn't Christmas till it happens in your Heart.

2009-12-26T04:30:00.000-08:00

I had a awesome day today. I'm happy. :)

Body Worlds was definitely an eye opener, really makes one ponder about their own mortality. The really disturbing parts I guess were the developing fetuses. The Cycle of Life indeed.

I just downloaded the entire Taylor Swift discography as per someone's suggestions. I guess it isn't that bad apart from the fact that all the songs are from a girl's perspective which is just kinda weird. Hah.

And apparently, I'm a good tour guide!

Merry Christmas. Till the next update ~

Don't they know it's the end of the world?

2009-11-08T05:07:00.000-08:00

Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud.

When the topic of what is Love came up today, I couldn't really think of any good answers, except walking home in the rain, saving up for a year to buy a clarinet, and maybe even spending 2 hours on buses alone to get movie tickets.

I'm pretty sure love isn't breaking promises, drinking, cheating, and lying. I don't think agape love is impossible among people, I just think it's just silly.

A levels are here, that was quick. Here's my best wishes to anyone who's reading this and takes A Levels.

I hate Novembers, for various reasons.

Oh well, on a lighter note, I shaked a hand today that shook the hands of probably Alex Ferguson, Wayne Rooney, Cristiano Ronaldo, Paul Scholes, David Beckham, Ryan Giggs. Never ever washing my right hand again. Though it may be a bad idea since it may turn gangrenous and fall off.

Dear Leroy,

2009-10-05T07:02:00.000-07:00

It's been some time since I've blogged, again. Yet another one of my little ritualistic cycles. I dare say it's been a rather unproductive holiday, again. What oh what am I doing with my life, the million dollar question.

I don't even really kinda know where I wanna be in the future, it's scary sometimes to look back and think, wow, did it all really pass by that quickly? Primary School, Secondary School, and now I'm about to start my second semester in my second year of Poly.

I don't want my first recent post to be another one of those pathetic self pity posts about what I woulda coulda shoulda have done in my life, and for Constance. It's been what, 2 years? 3 years? I can't even remember anymore.

I really sometimes just wish relationships let alone friendships were that easy to maintain. It's just that sometimes I do find it really hard to trust people, or even want to interact with them, quite frankly I prefer being alone, and to myself. Don't get me wrong, I thank God for each and everyone of my friends that I have, and it's probably true that I am a sum of everything that has happened to me, and large chunk of that comes from the friends and people that I know.

I think I just remembered why I stopped blogging.

Mixed Signals

2009-04-12T08:01:00.000-07:00

This is good night, this is the end.

Things to do before i die

2009-03-23T18:01:00.000-07:00

Coldplay was really awesome. Literally every song was awesome. Chris Martin is awesome. Will Champion is awesome. Jonny Buckland is awesome. Guy Berryman is awesome.

My vocabulary is awesome.

Sigh, my only regret is not staying after the concert to linger with the band. Jonny gave out Coldplay picks :( Oh well!

Really hope all those that couldnt make it for the concert due to exams or w/e the best of luck for your exams! And, by reading this you're signing a legally binding agreement to watch Coldplay with me the next time they come to Singapore. (:

If i had to chose a song, i'd say Yellow, Viva La Vida and The Scientist was the best last night. :)

Chris Martin was sharing about how each member of his band was talented musically and each of them had a great voice, and all of them being friends, had a hard time choosing who was to be lead singer, "to take all the abuse, and drugs" according to Chris Martin, and the interesting part was apparently, they played a game of Monopoly, Chris Martin lost it, and that's how he became the lead singer. lol

Some pictures! More on facebook. :) Reddish Clocks, Yellowish Yellow ^^, Pinkish Lovers in Japan(which was omg awesome btw) and emo The Scientist.

: o

2009-03-22T08:17:00.001-07:00

Alex says:
lol i know
i was int he toilet
when i read the papers
I SCREAMED FOR JOY
seriously

Yeah, I believe you. Don't worry. :)

Random Rants Of A Random Ranter

2009-03-22T06:20:00.000-07:00

Freak you JJ. If i can predict scorelines, i predict tonight Liverpool vs Aston Villa 1-0 to Aston Villa. Heh.

Holidays are slowly seeeeeping away. Much like my jellybean supply. I actually bought it as a gift, but heard little cries of "eat me!" coming from it. : | How does one resist such temptation?

While we're on the topic of Jellybeans, i think Cinnamon Jellybeans are a crime against Humanity. And the fact that they're red, to look like Strawberry, Raspberry Jam, and Peachie Pie makes it even more cruel. You pop it in your mouth expecting ever so tasty beans to melt and saturate your tastebuds, and get a mouth full of cinnamon instead.

If you're reading this, yes You The Jelly Bean Factory CEO, I am very very angry. In fact, i'll dedicate this post to you to show how angry I am at you. > : (

Which reminds me of a joke Kenn made this morning before Service. That's right, we don't talk during Service. :)

Hullo hullo, if you're reading this Mr Alex (Waking up for cell doesnt count) and Mr Edmund, service / church isnt the same without you. We/I miss your company!

Update : Gosh, Caribbean Coconut, Popcorn and Marshmallow flavors are just as bad.

2009-03-21T09:04:00.000-07:00

Okay. This is the part, where i stop watching the game, wake up in the morning and man utd will magically win.

Sigh, depressing. Long tiring day, coming home to a paul scholes red card and 1-0 at HT.

What could be worse? The skin on my feet is peeling off. : | Played barefoot at anfield today. Damn crazy weather. Omg it's Fernando Torres aka El Homo. No one scores against man utd and get's away with it!

Sigh, another day of holidays gone.

Kinda looks like a post-apolocalyptic photo of Anfield after a nuke went of or something. Weather was really cool today, first a freaking huge giant rainbow, and now post-apolocalyptic signs that show our doom. Yay.

Sigh

2009-03-21T08:21:00.000-07:00

1-0 down now. Scholes red card hand ball.
Sigh hope my dream doesnt come true

Woot

2009-03-20T05:04:00.001-07:00

Manu vs Porto
Villarell vs Arsenal
Liverpool vs Chelsea
Barcelona vs Bayern

Thanks JJ. Who needs goal.com and channel 23 when you can update me on MSN. :)

Liverpool vs Chelsea again ftw. UEFA must be having a laugh.

Update : Managed to ninja the results by mail. Ninja Warrior ftw. Rawr.

nPAL isn't really that much a PAL.

2009-03-19T19:55:00.000-07:00

I don't know, I usually wouldn't really make friends with a person/thing/website that always serves as either the devil's advocate, the harbinger of doom, or the bearer of my results.

Firstly, I'd like to say, SCREW ALL OF YOU WHO SENT ME SMS-ES THIS MORNING. (No offence) but whenever I received an SMS, I was just kinda really super duper worried it would be by nPAL friend giving me my results and trying to cause me to go in a cardiorespiratory and cardiopulmonary failure and make me die a slow/swift painful death. Thank you Grey's Anatomy and House. On a side note, i've noticed that no one ever dies on House. Ever.

The irony of it all, was that npal didnt even send the cursed SMS, because i forgot to renew my HP number with them this Sem.

Results : Le Sigh

MODULE	CREDIT UNIT	GRADE	ATTEMPT
BUSINESS COMMUNICATION 1	4.00	B	1
CREATIVITY AND APPLIED THINKING SKILLS	2.00	C	1
IT IN BUSINESS	4.00	C+	1
MICROECONOMICS	4.00	D+	1
ORG BEHAVIOUR FOR SERVICE EXCELLENCE	4.00	B	1
PRINCIPLES OF ACCOUNTING	4.00	C+	2
SPORTS AND WELLNESS	2.00	PX	1

Hmm. Biggest let down would be Econs. But really, thank you everone for helping me and putting up with my noobness. I'd say this has been an improvemnt i guess from last sem. But i really want to do well. Not just because of the family pressure or competition, but yeah.

It really sucks when the rest of your family is so sucessiveful with the seas of lawyers and bankers in the family, and i'm the dude in Ngee Ann Poly.

I also think i shall go for lectures from next sem onwards. By some miracle i managed to achive those results without going for any lectures this sem.

Sigh. Okay Petrina, i shall try looting and stealing from lectures. Whatever that means. : p

Alexander Bennedict Yan Yao Heng. I'll give you 5 dollars for everytime i Pon a lecture okay. MC's dont count. Screen shot this too, in case i edit it out when i regret it.

NPAL just SMS-ed me asking me to go to NPAL to sign up for IS enrichment modules next sem. Sigh. Which again is kinda contradictionary and ironic seeing HOW THEY HAVE MY NUMBER IN THEIR DATABASE TO EVEN SEND STUPID SMS-ES ABOUT ENROLLMENT WHEN THEY CANT SMS ME REGARDING RESULTS.

eddy says:
you should have gone ac
more chance to go uni

Yeah, but thinking back. I don't think i'll study hard in AC? I guess? Not like i'm studying hard now..but aiya. It's just one of those mistakes that changes your entire life. To think I gave it up for a girl lol.

Wishing the rest of you guys the very best of luck for your results!

A Rush of Blood to the Head

2009-03-17T19:23:00.000-07:00

You know that feeling, when you literally just wake up, and it's everything's fuzzy as you're trying to make sense of it all if you're awake or still dreaming. Well yeah. I find it annoying.

I woke up today dreaming of Man Utd vs Fulham, and man utd lost 3-1.

Jogging with Alden = Depressing

To do list

Running shoes
Ankle guard
Wake up early on friday to get results from mailbox

Damnit, I don't feel confident of my results all of a sudden.

Oh well, get well soon

When the Right is Wrong.

2009-03-15T04:31:00.000-07:00

I had by standards an awesome day? But I still feel drained and depressed.

Pretty sure it has something to do with Man Utd and Liverpool and the 4-1 scoreline.

Hurhur. What a stupid excuse, feeling sad because of that.

I guess it's true what they say when It's nothing but time and a face that you lose.

Because you deserve so much more.

The Day The Whole World Went Away

2009-03-12T01:09:00.001-07:00

Yet another thing to look forward to in may!

Terminator 4 : Salvation on may 21st. :)

Terminator's like one of my all time childhood favorite show. 2 was probably the best, 3 was entertaining but meh. And Sarah Connor Chronicles with Summer Glau is just yay.

Kinda early, but this year, all i want for Christmas is my own personal T-888 with Summer Glau's skin template. Just not Arnie.

Can't wait for 14th March! Man Utd vs Liverpool.

Title deciding match my ass! Even if we should lose, we'll still win the Title. :) But, we'll probably win the match anyway :)

Magical Unicorn

2009-03-10T08:46:00.000-07:00

Anyone know where to buy Magic Unicorns in Singapore?

No, seriously.

Shiny

2009-03-05T04:20:00.000-08:00

I got through the entire day of today sitting on my desk, oblivious to a big white envelope with "ATTENTION: LEROY ONG PRIVATE & CONFIDENTIAL" on it. I'm not kidding about the caps either.

When it finally got the attention it craved from shouting open me all day, i found the envelope already open. (Which I freaking hate, private and confidential my ass). So it turned out to be my shiny new Debit Card which i applied some time back. Which also means I'm screwed because my parents found out i applied for one.

On the bright side it does have my name on it, making it really cool, and altogether unnecessary at the same time.

Hmm. Rain check : 467 days.

I'm rusty and i need a wing man. :(

Note to self :

Activate card within 60 days, or it'll be terminated (By a Terminator i hope) and become a useless chunk of plastic with my name on it. Which doesn't sound so bad does it.
Intercept NP Results by post from 20th March onwards to prevent Armageddon.
Get smashed on substances again.

Sigh @ You Pandora

2009-03-02T01:04:00.000-08:00

When she opened it, all of the evils, ills, diseases, and burdensome labor that mankind had not known previously, escaped from the jar, but it is said, that at the very bottom of her box, there lay..

Hope.

The path to Hell is paved with good intentions

2009-02-26T10:00:00.000-08:00

Well, exams are over.. But?

Operation : The wheels of a bus go lololol

2009-02-24T22:28:00.000-08:00

With two papers down and one to go. Will Leroy succeed in destroying the evil ITB paper of doom with a obscenely high 60% weightage? Will Leroy enjoy his holidays? Will i eat a tuna sandwich now?

Yes, probably not, and definitely yes on tuna. Like they say, there's more to live in life then just profits and results. Things like tuna. And slurpees. And giant cupcakes of doom bent on destroying the world.

Speaking of doom, I felt Man Utd deserved to win against Inter Milan. Not only did I waste my time studying till 3:45AM to give an excuse to watch the match, another 2 hours of watching the match, Man Utd actually did play well in the first half. Esp Ronaldo, which was rather surprising. Given his form in EPL this season. And I think Carrick is a diver. Sort of.

PoA today was do-able, and hopefully passable. The whole incident about Alex and waking up at 9 to see my facebook status thing was pretty amusing. But really, wow. If not for that, gg@u.

I tried my luck today of brining in my iPhone as a calculator. Didn't work out very well. Did manage to get a few pictures though. lol. *never seen before footage of our examinations*

2009-02-23T22:48:00.000-08:00

Heard this song online, and I realized how much i missed it from a child : | Which makes me wonder why i was listening to emo songs as a kid. I blame my parents.

The End Of The World

Why does the sun go on shining
Why does the sea rush to shore
Don't they know it's the end of the world
'Cause you don't love me any more

Why do the birds go on singing
Why do the stars glow above
Don't they know it's the end of the world
It ended when I lost your love

I wake up in the morning and I wonder
Why everything's the same as it was
I can't understand, no, I can't understand
How life goes on the way it does

Why does my heart go on beating
Why do these eyes of mine cry
Don't they know it's the end of the world
It ended when you said goodbye

2009-02-23T06:31:00.000-08:00

I'm....happy. That's bad. I'm never happy lol.

lolwut?

2009-02-22T04:28:00.001-08:00

This time next week, I'll be happy and carefree. (Until my results come back)

I'll honestly be quite surprised if I don't fail anything this semester. Yes, i'll be happy too. But yeah. I think i have the lowest Lecture/Tutorial Attendance rate for any first year student in Business Studies. (Thanks Alex for helping me tap card the entire sem, i appreciate it/you more than you ever know <3)

I also think buying textbooks are a waste of money. I haven't bought any for the past year except Law, which was freaking useless, and is still with Alex somewhere in the debts of his home.

I also realized that Rammstein is actually a very very good band to study to. Probably because they drown out any noise you can possibly imagine and they sing in German. That way, i don't have to focus on the lyrics and can devote my much needed and treasured attention to the loves of my life. Econs, PoA, and ITB. (Until next week)

Sigh, why'd she have to pick the turtle. Turtle's aren't cute. They're green, and have elongated necks and hard shells. Sigh.

No, screw you back MoE

2009-02-18T17:55:00.000-08:00

So lately everyone's been passing around that HWZ link for poly students, showing the required GPA for entering those courses.

To those people that go like "Oh 3.9 GPA is no kick, i have 4.0" Well sincerely, from the bottom of my heart, screw you too.

Granted my lecture attendance for every module combined this semester is countable with one hand with multiple finger amputations, I would still like to think I put in effort in my work.

I should have gone overseas in Sec 3 when I had the chance.

I shall now go watch Yes Man and enjoy every frame of it in silent defiance.

D'oh, opportunity cost. Damn you econs.

/bite rawr.

Money Money Money

2009-02-15T23:31:00.000-08:00

Must be funny. In the rich man's world.

I think I've been spending a tad too much recently. Retail Therapy ftw.

iPhone

T90 Laser II Boots

Coldplay Concert Tickets

Mannnn. I spent like almost 3 hours in the polyclinic today. Crazy stupid waiting time. Monday blues, so many people were there.

And seriously, whoever bought Coldplay tickets online is just evil. 1 hour advantage before everyone else. Samantha and I were like "wth" when the 158 category was only left with single seats by 9.30AM, a good 30 minutes before the tickets were open for purchasing.

I also think i talked too much too the lady selling the tickets. : | Was asking too much about the tickets, i think i talk alot when i'm stressed. Samantha had to type "STOP TALKING TO HER LA" on her phone lol. Finally booked the tickets. :)

Songs i demand/want Chris Martin to sing

The Scientist
In My Place
Politik
Viva la Vida
42
Lost
Yellow
A Rush of Blood To The Head
Till Kingdom Come
Fix You
Everything's Not Lost
Amsterdam
Clocks
The Scientist
The Scientist
The Scientist

Did I mention The Scientist? : |

23rd March!

They Don't Speak As Loud As My Heart

2009-02-12T00:51:00.000-08:00

COLDPLAY

is coming to

SINGAPORE

Gosh! Finally! I've really wanted to go for their Twisted Logic Tour and performance in Singapore in 2006, but money and time were really big bitches then! (still are)

Really happy and psyched about it.
:)

Look how they shine for you

2009-02-03T04:00:00.000-08:00

Hello you.

I really like going on hiatus's for really long extended periods of time. That way when i come back and review my old posts, i notice nothing's really changed.

Main reason why I haven't been blogging for so long is that I really don't find anything worth blogging about. Not that I'm feeling sorry for myself that life has been mundane and full of shit, but rather that not only it wastes my time writing mundane nonsense, it also wastes the time of my dear ever so dedicated readers.

So what's changed?

It's now 2009
I finally own a Silverburst Les Paul <3
I finally own a iPhone 3G.

Quite literally everything else is the same.
Pathetic.

EPIC FAIL

2008-06-15T07:34:00.000-07:00

Hmm..And i quote from Alden " Crash and Burn"

Aye. UNDER 18 MY ASS LOL. Freaking 25 year olds playing in the competition also. Using swear words like punctuation, no sense of sportsman ship whatsoever. Oh well. I really think everyone but me really really really did a good job today.

ONE Camp tomorrow.

Lord, I know you'll work things out for me

MIA

2008-06-08T22:14:00.000-07:00

Havent been updating lately due to hectic schedule *excuse*, anyway, decided to go for my class chalet after all. 3 days more of not updating (:

Tag Replies
Mund: I'm lazy leh how lol

SL : Black pervert tsk tsk. ._.

Jarold : hi lol :p

Jasmine : Aye, i hope you die too yeah? Then you can give me your iPod Touch, Wii, and your brother's Seymour Duncan pickups. <3

Off for chalet!

Great day!

2008-06-04T08:34:00.000-07:00

How will I die? Your Result: You will die in a nuclear holocaust. The country responsible will be an unexpected one. I hope that you will be close to the epicenter of the explosion. Radiation is terrible. Your death, however, will always be remembered.
You will die in a car accident.
You will die while saving someone's life.
You will be murdered.
You will die of boredom.
You will die from a terminal illness.
You will die while having sex.
You will die in your sleep.
How will I die? Create a Quiz

Lol? I always wanted to know how i would die :p

Aye, today was by far one of the best days i've had in a LONG LONG LONG LONG time. Even though i have common test tomorrow. But hell, screw Law. lol. I think i'm gonna fail Hah.

My day started off well with Jasmine coming over around 11:30. (30 mins late, hehe) Really fun~ Jammed and messed around till around 1+. Aye she brought Ba Zhang that she and her mum made. Haha. Not bad leh haha. Tasted great. Apparently we have the common dislike for walnuts in our dumplings. lol.

Took a half and hour bus ride with her to Queensway Shopping Center. Where we collected my Team's new Jersey, and we met Justin haha. Justin was like craving for the Katong Laksa thingy downstairs so had to humour him and sit there and watch him eat :p

Went Mac's to study, which honestly wasnt exactly very very productive. lol. Oh well.

Around 4+ We left Macs and took bus. Justin went home and Jamsine and i took 14, i dropped at dover and she went home~ Pang seh. nvr go bbq. lol.

Aye soccer today at Anfield was phenomenal. I scored a goal! There was like this time i got through the whole defense also. Jerome praised me man. That kinda means alot to me haha. Everyone was like wah leroy on fire today. Man that felt great. I wanna like train more and get on his level man. Be it 5 years down the road or anything. One day!

Had a BBQ Party for Zack Joel Halls today. BBQ was really fun with everyone there lol. Good food, good company, good view. *COUGH* lolol.

Swimming after that, and we pushed azan into the pool with his shirt still on. GG, best part is that he was wearing his argentina jersey lol.

Played CTF in the pool. Then took a cab with Alden home. Aye, good times. Haha.

Ties that bind

2008-06-03T05:25:00.000-07:00

Hello World.

Lol i woke up this morning to the sound of heavy machinery and knocking outside my window. I was like WTH when i saw this.

Apparently there were construction workers outside my window painting the wall lol. Cool man. And i live on the 15th Story. My first reaction was like. OMG I'M GETTING ROBBED. Then i realised robbers dont use scaffolds. lol

Aye, MacroEcons test was pretty good, considering how i slept at 3AM the night before the test playing Run Kitty Run, Dota, and TAK Paintball. Rofl. Amar and I were like OMG SHIT LEROY WE'RE SCREWED FOR TOMORROW. FAIL TOGETHER K? Haha. Aye, i think i can pull of at least maybe a 70/100. Hopefully. (:

Hmm..law test on Thursday. Gonna be really hard. Stupid LAC formats.. Gosh i hope i pass ><

Aye i managed to do that heart shape shadow thing i keep seeing here and there. Kinda cool. (:

Aye view from my house at night. Gotta love silence.

Thanks for reading.

Inebriated with nonchalance

2008-05-31T04:51:00.000-07:00

Had my first POA common test today. Hmm...lucky i did the sample paper in the morning. I'm pretty confident i can pass (i think) lol@contradiction. Hmm..stupid account didn't balance. Was super shocked to see people actually requesting to leave early.. so.. either they are super smart, or just gave up on the paper. The latter i hope ><

Kinda fell asleep during the test abit, was super uber tired and sleepy, slept quite late last night.. thanks to Keren. :p Aye Congrats on BM yeah? Something i always wanted and never could get! haha. See? I told you like from dunno since when that you'll be BM, or i'll make them make you BM. :p

Sigh i hate to admit Elaine Lim was right, but i do indeed miss Fairfield. The people at least.. 4C, band, you.. hah. But looking back, it was more of these kind of friendships that really make me miss band now. ._. Thank God i didn't go AC. All for the wrong reasons anyway. Ngee Ann's really different in a good way. The people, culture, food (mm), it's about time i made new friends anyway. Not that saying 10 years in Fairfield wasnt bad. Haha. Oh well. I promise i'll visit soon. Not a soul in sight.

Stop and smell the roses.

Mmm.

2008-05-30T04:44:00.000-07:00

Alas, all good things come to an end?

E-Learning week. Haha. Well... E-Learning week wasn't THAT great.. but aye, much deserved rest. : p Had LMS today at 8-10am. Last session Ester Chin had with us, so she baked us cookies the night before. ._. so sweet haha. I never had a teacher bake me anything before. Ever! Except...F&N which doesn't really count. Haha.

Finally took my E-Learning quizzes for DSS, and POA.
DSS = 90/100
POA = 42.5/50

Sure, there are issues regarding the questionable legality and means of getting the answers, but hey.. i guess that's life?

Went to the Library to study after LMS. Honestly it wasnt that productive.

and no, i do not read men's health. lol. Irsyad busy gaming behind me.

We left for Alex's house to get the soccer competition form and submit it to the organizers, i'm quite proud of myself, managed to forge all the 6 signatures for my team. The woman at the counter didnt even notice. Whoo-hoo.

Went to anfield after that, but no one was playing. : \

We DID manage to find a Korean creature called Young Su, which claims that LG and Samsung owns any other HP in the market ._. Aye, he's damn cute lah haha. One of the rare moments that i wished i had a sibling to bully. Apparently his family is still in Korea.. only his mum and bro Daniel are in Singapore. Gotta suck being in a foreign land. Camera Shy lol

._.

Aye POA Common Test tomorrow and i'm super not prepared. Wish me luck guys. I'll need it. x_x.

Eeeeeeeeeeeeeee-Learning week

2008-05-27T19:47:00.000-07:00

Okay, to be honest, i havent logged into Mel once this week lol. Gonna do my first assignment today i think/hope/wish.

Omgomg, i watched both season finales for CSI NY and CSI Miami this morning. Both cliffhangers..argh. Horatio died? omogmogmogmogmogogmogmogmomg. The stupid bank robber lied to Mac? omgomgomgomgomgogmomgomg. Sigh..have to wait till September. Damn you Fox network!

Yesterday was alright i guess. Went to Wisma to collect my laptop, apparently they "solved" the problem. Bleh bullshit. Oh well. Went to HG's house after that, started raining cats and dogs then so we decided to use HG's brand new MioTV thingy and watch a free movie, Garfield. I fell asleep. Mm..couch, comfy.

Aye managed to convince the guys to go down for soccer in the rain, ended up in the Multi-Story carpark playing 1 on 1 tackling and "Squash" with the ball. Quite fun i guess.

Went to Anfield to play awhile. Mm..sexy shoes. (Silver Adidas Preds ftw)

First post

2008-05-26T07:54:00.000-07:00

Well, it's been a long time since i blogged, last blog being a joint blog with Constance. Which kinda speaks for itself on why i stopped blogging.

Last week was great. With the UEFA Cup Finals, and Hillsong Concert.

E-Learning week this week! Ironically my laptop is being serviced right now, and I'm too lazy to log into Mel with this computer. I guess i'll just use that excuse.

The day started off fine i guess. Woke up to an empty home, and stomach. Made breakfast, watched Harold and Kumar number 1 again, then went to Clementi for lunch with Jasmine. *cough* late *cough* Worse dumpling noodles ever! As if dropping one dumpling on the floor, and staining my t shirt in the process wasn't bad enough, the noodles had to taste bad to make things worse.

Went to HG's house after that, and played Dota and watch PES. I swear, William is one of the weirdest PES players I've seen. Ever. He was like Man United vs China on Easy one star difficulty, and would scream for joy like there was no tomorrow, for every goal he scored. Which was...kinda like 30-0 at full time. Haha.

Soccer at anfield! First time i was chosen as the first player by Alden <3 Think i kinda made it up for it with that wonderful own goal i scored. ._.

Gosh on our way back home, we saw alot of FMSS-ACJC-ians. They were all like Hi Alden! Hi leroy! etc etc, and only i said hi lol. There was this Girl that asked Alden like, "Hey what are you doing here?" like 3 times. Alden didnt even reply once LOL.

Aye that's about it for today. lol.. kinda boring i know. Oh well. Thanks for reading.